Friday, June 12, 2009

Where did the time go?

So I have to tell you that my 8 year old still (on a rare occasion) sleeps with Mommy and Daddy. And I have to admit, I still like it. Last night she asked if she could sleep with us, since big sissy was at a sleep over. As we lay in bed, Kate snuggled up next to me, I started to wonder where did the time go? There are so many little things my kids did that I can't remember. Is this normal? I as a mother feel that I should remember everything that my kids ever did when they were younger. Sure I can remember their first steps, and crawling and other major things.
Poor Kate, when she came along my older daughter was 2 and she still required a lot of attention, therefore I think I forgot little things that Kate did? This makes me so sad I wish I had a remote and I could turn back time and watch everything over again. I guess that is what home movies are for, and it is good that we have a lot of them. Every so often my oldest will ask "Are you sad that we are growing up?" I want to tell her the truth "It hurts my heart so much to see you grow more and more every year" but I don't want her to think for a minute that I don't enjoy them growing up. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy them growing and watching them have their first dance, boyfriend, sleepovers, long phone conversations (lots of texting) and everything else that comes with the territory. But I do miss holding them on my lap, watching their sweet face as I feed them a bottle, discovering things for the first time and talking baby talk. So as much as I don't like time flying by me I will cherish all the pictures, scrapbooks, and video when they were babies. I will also cherish all the times I have now with them growing up and still discovering things for the first time. It's the little things in life I wish I could remember.



So I'm sitting here sobbing as I read your post. Beautifully written.

I secretly can't stand the fact that my children are growing up. Yet, each year that Mary gets older brings about new experiences and opportunities we share together. Now we go to movies and actually have a conversation about her favorite parts. We go shopping together...our first Black Friday outing (last Thanksgiving) was so much fun! Her discoveries and logical thinking amazes me.

But, oh how I miss those sweet baby cheeks and dimpled thighs. As I was posting for I *heart* faces I was reminiscing about our beach vacations and how she no longer has that baby look! :(

Ben too. I was shocked to see how much he has longer a baby, he looks all little boy! Boo hoo! ;)

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